"LONELY"

I get really depressed in the middle of the night and sometimes I cry, because I feel so lonely living alone and because I’m in this situation. I have nobody to talk to or to comfort me at least so I can forget about my situation. It is so hard for me to believe that my mom could stand to forget about me and not love me at all. She could not see the good things I want to accomplish for her; instead she only cares for herself. She has lost me for years because my dad brought me to America, but now that I am back to be by her side, she has no interest in me or whatsoever. Sometimes I feel just ending my life to remove the pain in my heart, but I hesitate to do so, because I still have a mission. I always wonder how long I have to sacrifice, because when my brother was alive my mom loved him so much and she only focus on him. Her world only revolved on my brother, which all her relatives knows it and proud of It. I am not mad or jealous of my brother, because I loved him very much, but I deserved to be loved by my mom as well specially that I was gone for so long. I guess that I just have to take it one day at a time to be strong and not give up no matter what I have to go through my love for her will never change.