CONVERSATION 1 of 3 parts

I apologized for removing the recorded conversation, due to a family member's request, who I highly respect.


This conversation that my mom and I had on June 30th was recorded for the purpose of reminding her in the future to whatever agreement we shall have upon. Unfortunately, the conversation did not turn out the way supposed to be. Instead, she showed me again that whatever I do or suggest is not important to her, and has always been like that ever since. That day, I was hoping that she would compromise with me and I was hoping that my comfort will be important to her, since my brother died recently. All I wanted was to change herself and to prepare for her future, because she is getting out of control with her gambling and her constant borrowing a lot of money from different people just to support her gambling addiction. I got out of control yelling at her, because she would not listen or compromise with me. I know I was wrong to yell at her, but I could not help myself anymore, because I am trying so hard to get through her head to wake her up from reality. I’m like person trying so hard talking to a drug addict that’s getting out of control. That day, she really proved that she never really loved me at all, and that I am not important to her. Even though how hard she pushes me away from her, I will keep on chasing her and I will not give up until she straighten up her life, even If I shall not gain her love.