"LIFE"

Hello everyone...... It's been a while since I posted anything on my blog.... When I started my blog, I was suppose to help my mom deal with her problem, but through the process of my blog I came to realized that I was also helping myself to learn to straighten up my life... My mom had a very good development with her gambling issue, because she has finally straighten up her life.... I know for a fact that I was able to somehow encourage her to straighten up her life indirectly..... Now???? I have issues myself that I have to find a solution to fix everything I mess up......

I thought that everything was going the right direction for me, but I came to realized that I myself has failed to do so....... I was lost again in this world and I did not care if I would get myself in trouble again nor get anyone involve with my issues, because I was being dumb again with my life........

On October 31 2008, I met this young and beautiful girl and her name is Marinel.... I thought she was the girl that I was looking for in my life, because she was beautiful, sweet, caring and has full of energy..... She made me feel young and she kept my hopes up to live longer.... In short Marinel became my inspiration...... I was so happy with her and I thought I was going to live happy with her for the rest of my life....... We did everything together all the time and she was always by my side with whatever I do even if it was against the law... She was very supportive with everything I do in life and this is the first time that I met a girl who is very supportive........

Marinel showed me the love that I never had experience with my past relationship, because she showed me how much she cares for me and I return that favor back by giving her all the love that I can.... She would get furious whenever I am not around her and if she does not know where I am she gets mad and sensitive..... For me, I was glad for her to show me that kind of attitude, because If some one really loves and cares for you that person would be just like Marinel... Some people can deal with it some people can't deal with issues like with what Marinel and I had in our relationship..... Marinel and I had a love that I guess it was very unusual...... Not all relationship and not all couples has a regular relationship.... During the process of our relationship we had lots of love but we also had lots of crisis...... We argued a lot but we tend to work things out based on our strong relationship to hold on to each other....

I never gave up on Marinel even when she gets tempered all the time, because I really love her with all my heart.... This is the first time that I really I loved someone even if Marinel has an attitude that no one can deal with... I am the only person who will love Marinel for who she is and no matter what she had in the past with her life.... When I was with Marinel, I was in love and I did not care If I just focus my entire life on her all the time...... I mean, "I REALLY LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART"......... She hurt me so many times and made me her slave and I did not care if someone tells me not to allow Marinel to do whatever she was doing to me.... She took control of my manhood and I did not care as long as she loves me, as long as she does not mess around with another guy, and as long as she will never live me behind.....

"HONK IF YOU LOVE JESUS"

GRANDMA STORY :

The other day I went up to a local Christian bookstore and saw a, 'Honk if you love Jesus' bumper sticker.




I was feeling particularly sassy that day because I had just come from a thrilling choir performance, followed by a thunderous prayer meeting, so I bought the sticker and put in on my bumper.
I was stopped at a red light at a busy intersection, just lost in thought about the Lord and how good He is and I didn't notice that the light had changed.
It is a good thing someone else loves Jesus because if he hadn't honked, I'd never have noticed.

I found that LOTS of people love Jesus. Why, while I was sitting there, the guy behind started honking like crazy, and when he leaned out of his window and screamed, "for the love of God, GO! GO!" What an exuberant cheerleader he was for Jesus.

Everyone started honking! I just leaned out of my window and started waving and smiling at all these loving people.

I even honked my horn a few times to share in the love.. There must have been a man from Florida back there because I heard him yelling something about a sunny beach...

I saw another guy waving in a funny way with only his middle finger stuck up in the air. When I asked my teenage grandson in the back seat what that meant, he said that it was probably a Hawaiian good luck sign or something.

Well, I've never met anyone from Hawaii , so I leaned out the window and gave him the good luck sign back.

My grandson burst out laughing, why even he was enjoying this religious experience.

A couple of the people were so caught up in the joy of the moment that they got out of their cars and started walking towards me.


I bet they wanted to pray or ask what church I attended, but this is when I noticed the light had changed.

So, I waved to all my sisters and brothers grinning, and drove on through the intersection.

I noticed I was the only car that got through the intersection before the light changed again and I felt kind of sad that I had to leave them after all the love we had shared, so I slowed the car down, leaned out of the window and gave them all the Hawaiian good luck sign one last time as I drove away.

Praise the Lord for such wonderful folks!

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" FLASHBACK "

Hello every one!!! Right now it is 2 a.m. Phil time and I can’t go to sleep. I get so lonely because it’s frustrating to live alone and when I get frustrated I get flashbacks. Like right now, I am remembering the time when I was back in high school and I was popular back then because I was only 15 yrs old and I had a Porsche 924. Usually, a teenager would only have a regular car like a Toyota Corrola or a regular American car, but since my dad was working for a car dealership and because he was a manager, he could easily get any car he wants. The dealership he used to work for sells all makes and models, meaning the dealership carry all American, Japanese and European cars.

Yup! I was popular back then and I had friends especially girls. I was a player back then and they love to call me all the time and we would go everywhere even during school days and we would ditch school. Has any one remember the movie Ferris Bhuiller’s Day off? I get flashback whenever I remember that movie because his life was similar to mine except mine was better because I was driving a Porsche and I had my dad’s credit card to buy whatever I need. I would even take my girl friends shopping and we would eat Chinese food all the time, because Chinese food was our favorite, and back then when you take your friends to Chinese restaurant you are popular.

Yup! I ditched school all the time, that’s why my grades were so low and I could hardly pass. I was wrong and I had regrets because I wasted my time goofing around instead of getting my head straight. I always wish that I could do everything over so I could have a career working for a big company and I would have a good simple life, but instead I mess up my life and I went the wrong direction.

(to be continue)