"PROMISES"

Marinel and I made promises to each other that we will love each other and honor one another for thicker or for poor, in sickness and in health till death do us part.... We planned to get married this March 2009, but due to a tragedy our dreams was lost, and it was my fault that I did not make sure not to get involve with anything that would destroy our dreams.....

On December 2008, I moved in with her at their house at Hagonoy Bulacan, because I cannot help myself when we are not together. Her family is poor and they can barely survive to put food on the table everyday… Her family accepted me and they loved me as their own blood… They did not care if I have money or not as long as I am nice to them and because they know that I love their daughter so much that I would rather die if I don’t have Marinel in my life.

Do you know the song “BEAUTIFUL IN MY EYES” by Jericho Rosales? That was my song for her and every time I hear that song it makes me cry but very happy because I have Marinel in my life. Marinel became my inspiration to live despite of all my problems with my mom. When I met Marinel, I had forgotten my problems with my mom, because Marinel always tells me that my mom is still my mom no matter what…. She does not believe that my mom does not love me at all. That is why she always tries to cheer me up whenever I remember my mom…. Marinel is very supportive, sweet, caring and she showed me how much she loves me despite of all the mistakes she made in our relationship…. No matter what she did to me and no matter how many times she hurt my feelings, I love her so much that I can always forgive her no matter what…….

If God can forgive a sinner so many times, even we human can do the same as long as we love that person….. That is how I can forgive Marinel unlimited, as long as she loves me and never leave me behind for another guy… Call me stupid or martyr, I would not care, because my heart tells me that I love Marinel with all my heart…..

Some people want to bash my head on a wall because of what I am doing to myself with Marinel. I know for a fact that Marinel will never ever find another guy like me who will love her so much, and who would be faithful to her, and who would just focus on her all the time.

Due to all the promises we made to each other, I will never give up on Marinel to win her back. Even if a person tells me not to do so, I will not stop, because I want to save Marinel from her past. I don’t want her to go back. I want her to move forward to have a better life. That is my "PROMISE".........

"MR. BEAN"

"FLASHBACK" (continuation part 3)

Then, I moved on with my life living as a Thug and I got separated with the other girl that I was living with. I was having fun and living the crazy life that an average normal person would not do, and I did a lot of things that a thug would do to survive, and because I chose to be there, instead of going to school properly and finish college to have a career and to have a regular simple life. Living as a thug I had stayed away from my first born son because his mom stayed away from me because she never forgave me for abandoning them. Fortunately, I met a girl in Los Angeles, and I never thought that I would fell in love again like the way I fell in love with Eleanor, and I didn’t waste any time with this girl that I just met and fell in love with within a month of relationship. I was so in love with her I married her twice, once in Mexico and the second was a large wedding which I cried during the ceremony for being happy, and which our wedding took place at “YAMASHIRO” on top of Hollywood city. Yamashiro was a Japanese palace before the Japanese war and later became a restaurant that has a beautiful garden that is usually used for special occasions like weddings or birthday party. That was so expensive I had only limited my guess to a hundred people, but because of my gang (Diablo) I had no choice but to extend my limit because our gang was already 1 hundred members not including family members and other friends.

(to be continue)