I apologized for removing the recorded conversation due to a family member's request,who I highly respect.
I really appreciate the people that really understand my point and I assure you all that I am not putting my mom down. I am only trying to help her shape-up, because I do have concern for her. I really love my mom and If I didn't, I would not bother finding a way to stop her from destroying her life. Some people might not agree with me by making a blog about her, but for me this is the best alternative way, because this way not only will my message reach her, It will also help people understand on how to be concern to a mother or anyone, and it might encourage people on how to help someone with their own personal problem with any bad habits they may have.
I had also posted my stepfather's short message telling me to stop my mom from gambling and her uncontrollable spending for you all to understand that I am not alone with my mission. My mom's problem has to stop from here, and keep in mind that I am not trying to dictate her, but I am merely trying to help her with her situation.
TOMORROW I WILL POST MY LETTER AND MY PERSONAL VIDEO FOR MY MOM.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
CONVERSATION 2 OF 3 PARTS
I apologized for removing the recorded conversation, due to a family member's request, who I highly respect.
I hope that viewers of this blog will understand that I am merely trying to make a point and showing you all the facts of my blog, and this is not defamation for my mom. This is a therapy for her and myself and you will understand my point at the end. The truth shall set us all free and rehabilitated.
I hope that viewers of this blog will understand that I am merely trying to make a point and showing you all the facts of my blog, and this is not defamation for my mom. This is a therapy for her and myself and you will understand my point at the end. The truth shall set us all free and rehabilitated.
MY RESPONSE TO MY AUNTIE MARILOU
Dear Tita Marilou,
I really appreciate all the support that I’m getting from all of you (Herrera Clan). You are absolutely right about my mom finding something else to do instead of wasting her money and time gambling. The problem is, she has been gambling since 2005 and we all tried to stop her but she never listen to anybody. Especially this year before my brother died, she is getting worst and out of control. That’s why last June 30th my plan was to convince her to stop gambling and prepare for her future instead, but she refused. I like your Idea of getting involved with a good charity, and I was planning that for myself before this entire problem that I had to experience for now. It’s really hard for me to find a job here in the Philippines since I’m only a high school graduate and without any experience working here in the Philippines. That is why I wanted to convince my mom to opened up a business that I could be involve, but she is very selfish and she never had any belief in me ever since, so how can I solve my own personal problem in regards to finding work? That is a very complicated situation for me. Anyway, thank you very much again for your support since I was a kid. You had been like a mom to me all the time.
I LOVE YOU TOO,
DANNYBOY
I really appreciate all the support that I’m getting from all of you (Herrera Clan). You are absolutely right about my mom finding something else to do instead of wasting her money and time gambling. The problem is, she has been gambling since 2005 and we all tried to stop her but she never listen to anybody. Especially this year before my brother died, she is getting worst and out of control. That’s why last June 30th my plan was to convince her to stop gambling and prepare for her future instead, but she refused. I like your Idea of getting involved with a good charity, and I was planning that for myself before this entire problem that I had to experience for now. It’s really hard for me to find a job here in the Philippines since I’m only a high school graduate and without any experience working here in the Philippines. That is why I wanted to convince my mom to opened up a business that I could be involve, but she is very selfish and she never had any belief in me ever since, so how can I solve my own personal problem in regards to finding work? That is a very complicated situation for me. Anyway, thank you very much again for your support since I was a kid. You had been like a mom to me all the time.
I LOVE YOU TOO,
DANNYBOY
"MY AUNTIE MARILOU's LETTER"
Dear Danny Boy,
It's too bad that Ate Aida has a gambling problem. She is the only one that can solve her problem before it's too late. My advice to her is to stay away from casinos and find other ways to spend her time. She should be more productive than destructive. I know that it is hard to find a job but at least she should try to look for a job or go into business to make money. Another way is to spend time with you, her grand kids, friends and relatives so she can get her mind off gambling. Even better, if she can, she should help the needy by volunteering in church or other charitable institutions.
I am crying while I'm writing this email because I remember that when I was about 7 -10 years old, I lived with your Dad and your Mom for a little while. I helped your Mom sell fresh fish at a palengke in Pandacan. I really enjoyed going to the palengke with her. Please tell your Mom that after all these years, I still think about the good times that we spent together!
I really feel your Mom's pain! I think that the worst thing that can happen to a mother is lose a child. But she should not turn to gambling as means of forgetting her tragedy!
I will pray for your Mom, you and all our relatives there in the Philippines. Every time I pray to God for help, I know that God listens! But in order for God to help us we also have to help ourselves.
I love you!
Tita Marilou
It's too bad that Ate Aida has a gambling problem. She is the only one that can solve her problem before it's too late. My advice to her is to stay away from casinos and find other ways to spend her time. She should be more productive than destructive. I know that it is hard to find a job but at least she should try to look for a job or go into business to make money. Another way is to spend time with you, her grand kids, friends and relatives so she can get her mind off gambling. Even better, if she can, she should help the needy by volunteering in church or other charitable institutions.
I am crying while I'm writing this email because I remember that when I was about 7 -10 years old, I lived with your Dad and your Mom for a little while. I helped your Mom sell fresh fish at a palengke in Pandacan. I really enjoyed going to the palengke with her. Please tell your Mom that after all these years, I still think about the good times that we spent together!
I really feel your Mom's pain! I think that the worst thing that can happen to a mother is lose a child. But she should not turn to gambling as means of forgetting her tragedy!
I will pray for your Mom, you and all our relatives there in the Philippines. Every time I pray to God for help, I know that God listens! But in order for God to help us we also have to help ourselves.
I love you!
Tita Marilou
CONVERSATION 1 of 3 parts
I apologized for removing the recorded conversation, due to a family member's request, who I highly respect.
This conversation that my mom and I had on June 30th was recorded for the purpose of reminding her in the future to whatever agreement we shall have upon. Unfortunately, the conversation did not turn out the way supposed to be. Instead, she showed me again that whatever I do or suggest is not important to her, and has always been like that ever since. That day, I was hoping that she would compromise with me and I was hoping that my comfort will be important to her, since my brother died recently. All I wanted was to change herself and to prepare for her future, because she is getting out of control with her gambling and her constant borrowing a lot of money from different people just to support her gambling addiction. I got out of control yelling at her, because she would not listen or compromise with me. I know I was wrong to yell at her, but I could not help myself anymore, because I am trying so hard to get through her head to wake her up from reality. I’m like person trying so hard talking to a drug addict that’s getting out of control. That day, she really proved that she never really loved me at all, and that I am not important to her. Even though how hard she pushes me away from her, I will keep on chasing her and I will not give up until she straighten up her life, even If I shall not gain her love.
This conversation that my mom and I had on June 30th was recorded for the purpose of reminding her in the future to whatever agreement we shall have upon. Unfortunately, the conversation did not turn out the way supposed to be. Instead, she showed me again that whatever I do or suggest is not important to her, and has always been like that ever since. That day, I was hoping that she would compromise with me and I was hoping that my comfort will be important to her, since my brother died recently. All I wanted was to change herself and to prepare for her future, because she is getting out of control with her gambling and her constant borrowing a lot of money from different people just to support her gambling addiction. I got out of control yelling at her, because she would not listen or compromise with me. I know I was wrong to yell at her, but I could not help myself anymore, because I am trying so hard to get through her head to wake her up from reality. I’m like person trying so hard talking to a drug addict that’s getting out of control. That day, she really proved that she never really loved me at all, and that I am not important to her. Even though how hard she pushes me away from her, I will keep on chasing her and I will not give up until she straighten up her life, even If I shall not gain her love.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
"LONELY"
I get really depressed in the middle of the night and sometimes I cry, because I feel so lonely living alone and because I’m in this situation. I have nobody to talk to or to comfort me at least so I can forget about my situation. It is so hard for me to believe that my mom could stand to forget about me and not love me at all. She could not see the good things I want to accomplish for her; instead she only cares for herself. She has lost me for years because my dad brought me to America, but now that I am back to be by her side, she has no interest in me or whatsoever. Sometimes I feel just ending my life to remove the pain in my heart, but I hesitate to do so, because I still have a mission. I always wonder how long I have to sacrifice, because when my brother was alive my mom loved him so much and she only focus on him. Her world only revolved on my brother, which all her relatives knows it and proud of It. I am not mad or jealous of my brother, because I loved him very much, but I deserved to be loved by my mom as well specially that I was gone for so long. I guess that I just have to take it one day at a time to be strong and not give up no matter what I have to go through my love for her will never change.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS
People probably think that I have a problem with people gambling. As long as the person knows how to control to do “ANYTHING”, I don’t have a problem with people gambling or to do whatever they like to enjoy. Everyone is entitled to a pursuit of happiness to do whatever they enjoy or for their career as long as the person is not taking their life down the drain or affecting the people who loved them.
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