"LIFE"

Hello everyone...... It's been a while since I posted anything on my blog.... When I started my blog, I was suppose to help my mom deal with her problem, but through the process of my blog I came to realized that I was also helping myself to learn to straighten up my life... My mom had a very good development with her gambling issue, because she has finally straighten up her life.... I know for a fact that I was able to somehow encourage her to straighten up her life indirectly..... Now???? I have issues myself that I have to find a solution to fix everything I mess up......

I thought that everything was going the right direction for me, but I came to realized that I myself has failed to do so....... I was lost again in this world and I did not care if I would get myself in trouble again nor get anyone involve with my issues, because I was being dumb again with my life........

On October 31 2008, I met this young and beautiful girl and her name is Marinel.... I thought she was the girl that I was looking for in my life, because she was beautiful, sweet, caring and has full of energy..... She made me feel young and she kept my hopes up to live longer.... In short Marinel became my inspiration...... I was so happy with her and I thought I was going to live happy with her for the rest of my life....... We did everything together all the time and she was always by my side with whatever I do even if it was against the law... She was very supportive with everything I do in life and this is the first time that I met a girl who is very supportive........

Marinel showed me the love that I never had experience with my past relationship, because she showed me how much she cares for me and I return that favor back by giving her all the love that I can.... She would get furious whenever I am not around her and if she does not know where I am she gets mad and sensitive..... For me, I was glad for her to show me that kind of attitude, because If some one really loves and cares for you that person would be just like Marinel... Some people can deal with it some people can't deal with issues like with what Marinel and I had in our relationship..... Marinel and I had a love that I guess it was very unusual...... Not all relationship and not all couples has a regular relationship.... During the process of our relationship we had lots of love but we also had lots of crisis...... We argued a lot but we tend to work things out based on our strong relationship to hold on to each other....

I never gave up on Marinel even when she gets tempered all the time, because I really love her with all my heart.... This is the first time that I really I loved someone even if Marinel has an attitude that no one can deal with... I am the only person who will love Marinel for who she is and no matter what she had in the past with her life.... When I was with Marinel, I was in love and I did not care If I just focus my entire life on her all the time...... I mean, "I REALLY LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART"......... She hurt me so many times and made me her slave and I did not care if someone tells me not to allow Marinel to do whatever she was doing to me.... She took control of my manhood and I did not care as long as she loves me, as long as she does not mess around with another guy, and as long as she will never live me behind.....