"CHANCE"

I don’t know how come my mom refuses to get closer to me, since this is our time and chance to do so. Now that my brother is gone, she is supposed to be glad that I am here now compared to when I was still living in California. I guess it’s true that she never forgave my dad for giving her away to my stepfather, because one of my aunt told me that my mom see’s my dad’s reflection in me, which is the reason for her not to accept me as her son. Even though I had nothing to do with my dad’s mistake, I am supposed to be love by my mom, like the way I am willing to open my door to my son that I had not seen since he was only five years old because I am proud of him and I love him just for being my son.

I owe a lot to my children because of who I am and because of the life that I had chosen, In which I hope that they will give a chance to pay them back for all the mistakes that I had made in the past. That is why I do not and will not close my door on any of my children (or for any one) and I am willing to accept them no matter who they are or what they will become in their life, but I just hope and I am waiting that they will have the same love for me, the same love that I have for my mom, no matter who my mom is with her life or reputation. That’s the kind of love that I am expecting from my children, and I hope that my children will give me a chance to love them back.