"ROLLER COASTER"

My life has always been a roller coaster and I am already tired of being in an amusement park, because I had suffered enough already that I can not accept it any longer. I cried and I made people cry for my mistakes, and I regret my life because I had hurt a lot of people’s feelings and took advantage of their heart just to make myself content. I am still teaching myself currently and I really want to succeed with my goal not for me, but for my family.

That is why I also wanted to get closer to my mom to make her change her “WAYS NOT HER ATTITUDE” (knowing the fact that it is hard to change her attitude) because I know how important life is to be with your family based from my experienced and I don’t want her to be riding in a roller coaster because enough is enough. That is the reason why I am afraid for my mom because if she doesn’t shape up and keeps continuing to ruin her life she will end up just like my dad and I, and because of my brother’s death I know for sure that she doesn’t have a solid foundation to secure her future any more if she keeps on heading downward spiral with her ways which she has been doing since way “BEFORE MY BROTHER’S DEATH”.