" HINDI MAGBABAGO "

Dear Mommy,

I know I was wrong to yell at you and because I lost my temper the last time we spoke. You might not like my blog because of the contents that I had posted, but this is the only way that I might be able to communicate with you and maybe this way you will realize your mistakes. You know for a fact that you never agreed with me whenever I suggest anything to you, and you never realized that you always never believed in me especially when Ryan was alive. People always say it’s because I was never raised by you that’s why your world only revolved around Ryan. I was never jealous of Ryan nor got mad at him, because whatever problem that we both have between us does not involved Ryan. I really loved my brother Ryan and he knows that for a fact, because I am the only one who gave him happiness and freedom before he died. I wish that I was the one who died instead of him, because I have more suffering and pain that I had kept to myself. If God will only permit me to change places with him, I will never hesitate to do so, because I am willing to sacrifice my life for him and you.

You might not understand my points of view in life, because you had been always in denial. I had learned to accept my mistakes in the past which I am proud to accept my mistakes and you know that for a fact that I am a complete changed man. But why are you going the wrong direction now with your life? Remember when Ryan was doing something wrong and you always have to correct and discipline him? You were doing your job as a mom. How come the world is turned upside down now when it comes to your issues, which I am only trying to correct them for you? You are supposed to be happy that I am only concerned for your life, because I am your only child alive. You cannot rely on our relatives to take care of you because it is my duty to take care of you especially now that Ryan is gone.

I had been away from you for so many years and that I had experienced my childhood without you by my side. Now that it is time to spend the rest of your life with me, why do you not want me? You know for a fact that we both have a missing part in our life that is why we should stick together. The last time we spoke, I only want to compromise with you and to comfort you, but we both failed to communicate with each other the right way. I am still willing to compromise with you if you are willing to do so. Therefore, I hope that someday you will consider me as your own son and that you will really prove that you love me, the way I love you no matter what and who you are. My love for you ay “HINDI MAGBABAGO” and will never fade away no matter what........




YOUR LOVING SON,
DANNYBOY

P.S. Attached here is a music video that I created and I hope that you will listen to the words (by Randy Santiago) very closely.