"FLASHBACK" (continuation part 5)

After our tragedy in Los Angeles, we went back to the Philippines to lay low and because I had shipped two of my cars to sell in the Philippines, but I got ripped off by my business associate broker, by stealing my other car and I never heard from him again or recovered my car, because he fled back to California. Eventually I tried the life here in the Philippines for two years, but I was not able to adopt with my situation because I did not like the life here in the Philippines back then, and because I grew up from California I was having a problem with the culture here in the Philippines. Then I decided to go back to California with my daughter and wife who were pregnant with my other daughter, because our life was not going anywhere but downward spiral and we wanted our daughter to be born in the United States to become American citizen, and because I was never close with my mom anyway. We lived a simple life in San Jose California and I was working as a blue collar job at Silicon Valley, and our life was normal and relaxed until my wife unfortunately had a problem with her status. Then I began to goof around again to find a way to make a lot of money to prepare for our new life in the Philippines once more, because I did not want to be separated from my family and because life here in the Philippines is hard financially if a person does not have a career or experienced working in the Philippines. Yes, I was making a lot of money by goofing around and I had bought a lot of things for our new life we were preparing for the Philippines, unfortunately I mess up by mistake and eventually lost everything that I had, and I was so devastated and I did not know what to do any more except face the facts and just learn from my mistakes. I had suffered a lot but I had no choice but to make myself a better person and to just catch up on things eventually. I was so depressed and never forgave myself because of the life that I had chosen, and I had hurt my wife’s feelings and reputation because she was so embarrass of who I am. That is why I made myself change my ways for good for the sake of my family, because of all the mistakes that I had made in the past.

After a few years living with my daughters mom our relationship fade away. We did nothing but argue all the time. I was always being put down by Edith with everything I want to accomplish in life. I would always have a hard time trying to convinced her to give me some money for business, and our relationship turned sorrow and I had enough of our arguing and being put down all the time and I had no choice but to leave her and my two daughters to find myself......

I continued my journey to find my new life, and I struggled but never gave up. My mom turned her back on me and my daughter's mom moved on with her own life with her big unselfish pride...... Since my daughter's mom treated me like a piece of shit I eventually lost my love and respect for her. I eventually moved on with my new life.......